My Passion Was A Problem

  • May 10, 2017
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  • jessahlum

To begin my blog series focusing on personal and professional development I would like to share a story. It’s about a retreat I attended.

The experience was a 10-day immersive exploration into how our unconscious worldviews contribute to stress. I knew attending would help me better help my clients in their own growth.

My unconscious issues rose to the surface on day one when we were asked to share our name, where we were from, and our passion.

It was my passion that pointed to the problem. While others were chiming in about art, and nature, family and travel, I declared my passion for…wait for it…

Self-care. (Insert lame face).

Self-care!? C’mom what kind of passion is that? 

It dawned on me that my consistent attention towards managing my stress with self-care (hence the passion for it) was evidence that coping had become my way in the world. Then I learned the antidote to coping with stress is to heal the deep down stuff that was driving me and ultimately impacting my ability to be fully present.

This was a little bit of a shock not only because I deserve a P.hD in self-care practicies,  but also because I am the type of person who is always working on myself through reflection, personal therapy, coaching, mentorship, continuing education, and business development. I thought my masterful self-control to shape my life with a balance of health habits was evidence that I was doing ok.

I thought self-care was the best way to cope with my recurring symptoms, symptoms I am sure many of you can relate to: stress, anxiety, overwhelm, depression, racing thoughts, negative self-talk, the need to do-do-do, and a host of limiting beliefs. The trouble was clear. I needed to heal some of the old unconscious wounds in order to free up some of my life-force that would enable me to feel a passion for more than just “getting through” by taking extra good care of myself.

The retreat allowed me to move myself many huge leaps forward. It also changed the way I worked with clients. If you relate to the exhausting nature of non-stop coping with stress, even if you practice good self-care, let’s talk. It could be a life changing move in the direction of your personal and professional dreams.